Broke

Shit.

I am out of money. I have no money. I actually, legitimately, have no money. In my two savings accounts and two checking accounts, there are currently $2, because each of the savings accounts needs at each $1 to stay open.

Also, I owe $200 on my credit card bill.

How did this happen? Because I have no job right now. I am a student, and I had about $500 worth of required books this semester. And I buy shit like coffee and candy, and I do silly things like order pizza from time to time. SHIT.

How am I going to get money?? I have no income. And no time for a job. And I do NOT want to be in debt. (I know that not being in debt is a privilege, but right now it doesn't feel like it.)

My parents and grandparents are all potential sources of money. In fact, they all have money. So it's not like I'm poor, because my family is not poor. My family is upper middle class. However, in my family, one does not ask for money. That is extremely out of the question. And even if I asked, I would probably not get any, because even the act of asking would deem me unworthy of receiving any money.

So, I will have to wait until I graduate to get any money. SHIT. SHITSHITSHIT.

Luckily, as a student living in a campus dormitory, I do not have any costly needs, like food and rent, that I have to pay on a regular basis. I need things like shampoo and toothpaste and tampons, but those are only occasional expenses. And money to print readings. SHIT.

HOW AM I GOING TO PAY TO PRINT MY THESIS?!?!?!?!

ohmanohmanohman I have never been in this situation before in my life.